My twitter would say:

I'm at stevens house watching him play sipderman. He's been playing this game since 4:30 pm and its now midnight.. We got the new street fighter game but have yet to test it out. I cant wait. I also have a bad case of the farts. I had a chilimoco from zippys and I feel like a bloated hippo. I'm bored to death but its sorta fun watching him play the game.. Anyways ta-ta for now.

I have a crush...

On my co-worker Marshall.. hes cute, funny, has that cocky ass hole attitude (which I melt for) and hes seems cool. I don't really talk to him cause I turn simi-retarted when ever he talks to me. He makes all these gay innuendo jokes at me and it super hot.. Like today he stand in a corner where no one else can see him and call me name. I turn to look he has a plate of steak by hes dick and asks me if I want to eat his meat.. And its not in a your a faggot way but in a joking ha-ha way. And I wanted to say yes get rid of the steak and unzip those pants!! But I looked and smiled got a simi hard on and laughed and went back to work.. It took me about a half an hour to get that shit out of my mind. Anyways thats all for now I'm tired of typing. Thinking of Marshall is getting me all hot and bothered.. Nite!

One and Only!

I'm so, so lonely. looking for my one and only! Every time I turn around I find my heart in pieces on the ground. I'm riding home in pain again baby. And it don't mean shit to you. Your currently engaged in an intimate conversation with a young groupie or two. See players only love you when there playing games, still I gave my heart to you. It's been such a sad and winding road for me just searching for the truth!!

I would like to mention...

the guy I met at the bar as talked about in my drunk post. I just want to sat that never happened to me before. I don't go home with random strangers and sleep with them. Sure I'll make out with people but I wont go home with them.. I'm not some kind of skanky slut ho!! Thats all!

Unposted bolg entries!

I go to sleep every night with all of these thoughts that I want to blog down but never do cause if I turn my computer back on I know I'll be on it for another hour or so.. The one before this was something I thought of last night.I truly am happy in my life right now. Although I wish I were doing more things in my life that involved a little more creativity. I really want to take improve classes it looks really fun. Also I want to take some kind of martial arts of some sort. I just don't want to do all this shit alone but I know if I try and wait for someone to join me I'll be waiting forever. I also am thinking about getting a second job just for a little extra cash. I want to bartend. It looks like so much fun but I would only want to work in a gay bar.. I can't work with the straights!! No thank you!

Come to think about it!

I'm really happy with my life now. I really have no stress, I'm not depressed, my heart isn't shattered and in pieces, I'm not lonely yet, I like my job, I could stand to use a little more money but I don't want for anything. I have really good friends in my life now. Although I would love to meet more people.. I feel bloated but I still feel good about myself. I love my apartment. I love my cat. Everything is pretty good right now at this moment in time. I can't really ask for anything more. I want to start dating! I think I'm ready.. We'll try it out.. That all for now.. Nite..

Drunk Post!!!!

Extra Extra read all about it!!!

I can't believe I went home with some stranger!!! Lord knows he was good in bed and he made me cum harder than a mother fuck!! I felt bad cause he didn't cum at all but who care!... But I was happy I did.. I took a lot but I made it happen.. I think I want to fuck around with him next Thursday... I love Tapas!!! Dana rocks, 4 drinks for 4 dollars!!! Loves it! night hoes, I meed food! OMG and my phone broke!!! I'll explain later!

Fiona Found A Mic

OMG I forgot how funny this podcast was!!! Please go and listen to her at fionafoundamic.com..

My Gay Nerd Obsession

What is with this obsession that I have with gay nerds? Its so weird. I think its the glasses or something. I don't know. I'll post some pics of the guys I had and have crushes on and of the guys I dated.. Just so I can show the pattern. Brandon and David are both so fucking HOT!! Then theres the guy in red.. And I have internet crushes on stevie and taylor.. Go figure.

Jimmy Buffet Restaurant

The food was shit! Thank god it was free. I don't want to be ungrateful or anything cause it was nice of her to invite me but thank god it was free.. The hot food was cold the cold food was hot and the food took forever to get to us! DON'T EAT THERE!!! P.S. I love my new jacket!

Craigslist Missed Connections!!

For some odd reason I always check the missed connections to see if someone wrote about me.. It's funny and lame but I always think to myself maybe tomorrow.. LOL. I wonder what it would say it would be something like: To the guy with the "MC" tattoo on his right fore arm. You were sitting on the number 4 going to Waikiki. I like you shirt where did you get it from. Hit me back I want one just like that.. LOL.. It wouldn't mention that I was cute or anything and you know what? I'd be cool with that.. LOL.. I'm lame.. just thought I share.

My mind is so weird!!

Its crazy I don't know how I do it but my mind has this switch. Its always been my hidden talent. One day I'm so in love with him and the next day I feel nothing. I hope it lasts..

Next!!!

I feel good about dumping his ass!

Goodbye Steven!

I told Steven tonight I don't want to talk to him anymore. I'm sad but I know its the right thing to do. I still love him so much. God I'm going to miss him so fucking much but what more can I do, what more can I say. I did everything I could of done and it still wasn't enough. I realized tonight that I could never have what I truly wanted us to have. He wouldn't have allowed it. He's not the one, at least not right now. I've cried too much over the last year and I don't want to anymore. I deserve better. I deserve to be loved. I don't want to loose his friendship but in order for me to move on to a better place I need time to heal and time to learn from this experience. I really hope down the road I'll be able to talk to him and laugh about everything thats happened. I still wish him the best. I hope he enjoys hes time left here. And I'm sure he will. I'm sure he won't loose a wink of sleep over this. well I guess its time to cry myself to sleep.. Nite.

The silence is killing me!

It's 11:30 pm on a Sunday night and I'm dying of boredom. I have nothing to do. Theres nothing on tv, nothing new on the internet, the cat is sleeping. This is crazy. I want someone to save me!!

Pt. 2

I really am so in love with you but I don't know if I have the strength to wait till you come around. I honestly think I would rather be single and alone then to have my heart constantly shattered by you. It sucks! I'm so confused cause I know you love me and I know you want me to be in your life. It's just I feel like what I'm trying to accomplish with you is fruitless. You feel what you feel but you don't show how you feel. You say all these thing to me but you never show it. Maybe I'm being naive, maybe I'm want to believe you, I don't know how to feel right now. Its like I'm no longer mad at you, I want to be with you but at the same time I want to leave you but I'm still waiting for you to come around. Love sucks! This shit is so confusing.I really need to think about thing. I am really glad we had that fight. It cleared a lot of things between you and I but it sucks cause I think it made you even more distant from me then you were. It really feels like I'm fighting a losing battle. IDK... I'm only going to say this once more. The only thing I want from you is for you to love me. I don't want anyone else I only want you! I only want to love you! That's all. The end.